现在生活过得越来越没头脑了，时间像流水一样流逝。不知不觉，逐渐麻木。我打算在博客写日记，虽然我估计没多少人看，但是日记这种东西居然在博客写，那就有被看到的可能，这样也会反过来限制我不能瞎写，避免像很多年前写的日记一样太过中二导致自己不敢再看了。
1. 项目方面
网站主体已经搭好（并非本博客），主页也成功导入一个广告链接，只是未能固定到想要的位置。接下来我要使用AI辅助确定广告位怎么设计。提升流量也是一个难题，慢慢看吧，网站的稳定性也是一个主要因素，如果服务总是中断，那流量就不用想了。所以接下来的调试得小心些了。
2. 生活随想
不知道我如果给这个段落起名为“编程”+“随想”会不会出事哈哈哈。我打算把这里当成树洞，就当作我自己的吐槽了，毕竟有些东西国内平台我现在是说都不敢说；有时候心血来潮打字打了一大段发出去，嘿，您猜怎么着，评论被shadow ban了。
2.1 昨日
昨天惹女朋友生气了。因为她想中秋节出去和我吃顿好的，但我非常不识趣地说那些东西都不干净、国内的食品都不干净，国外的才干净。唉，我想我是受到刺激了才以偏概全说的这些，而且我也不是不吃国内的东西。最近被压榨的工人向云南鲜花饼吐口水、China GT赛车比赛居然找60元日结的老大爷救火、某汽车电池厂禁止员工如厕导致拉裤子等等新闻。前些天则是甲醛泡白菜、药水泡杨梅、脚踩老坛酸菜复刻活动。再倒推一年，还有铅水，啊不是，是天水铅中毒、矿物油车拉食用油。气笑了，这日子真是越过越好了。有人说，是现在新闻传播渠道多了，所以这种事情才接连曝光，实际有问题的不多。呃，有道理，但是从一些健康体检和食品质量检查来看，我们这个区域的人体内重金属元素含量偏高，某些食品也是污染物超标，这直接就不是个别新闻曝光的问题了。
由类似数学的递推原理想下去，不难发现，随着生存环境的恶化，这种偷工减料应付差事监管缺失的事情会增加。有人曾经预测，将来的这里会变成“底层互害”的状况。嗯，确实，这不就开始互害了，只是没有拿🔪互相捅罢了。
至于说一环接一环想下去，应该归因到什么、让谁来背锅，我想这是个无解的问题。有人说都怪资本家，要吊死他们，我只觉得这个想法很幼稚。再发动一次反右文革也不能解决问题，把现在这批人都拉取批斗枪毙，新上来的人大概也不会改变经营路线。为什么？我大概有个模糊的猜想：这些公司的生产其实还要受到地方政府的要求，毕竟生产一个产品就会计价到地方的GDP中，所以不能随意减产；而生产-销售过程是要尊重市场规律的，扩大的生产规模和过剩的产品会导致利润率降低。这时某些企业主为了利润率，会和质量、劳动监管部门沆瀣一气，监管人员直接装眼瞎。接下来发生的各种事情，我想世界上头脑最慢的人理解起来也应该不困难了。至于有人会说：企业主不要提现那么多不就好了，不要贪恋利润率就好了，把自己吃掉的那部分分给工人。说的有道理，可是，除了那些上市科技企业可以狂套股民的钱，然后给研发人员多分点钱，其它好像也不太现实吧，董事会和股东会那么好心吗？
我把最后这个话题交给Claude，它给我说——
点击展开回答……
中型制造企业里，企业主收入、员工工资总额、股东分红各占多少——老实说，公开统计里没有按”企业主个人收入 vs 工资总额 vs 分红”这样切分的数据，尤其是非上市中型企业，账目本身就不透明，企业主薪酬和分红界限也经常模糊（很多老板直接用企业账户支付个人开销）。能查到的官方口径大致是这样：
2023年中国制造业平均利润率大约在5%左右（不同口径、行业差异很大，有的重资产行业更低）；
规模以上工业企业的利润总额里，私营企业占比大概两到三成，其余是国企、股份制和外资；
人工成本占营业收入的比例（”人事费用率”）因行业差异极大，劳动密集型制造业（服装、食品加工）通常明显高于资本/技术密集型制造业。
从这几个数字大致能推出的结论是：多数中小制造企业的净利润率本身就很薄（个位数），如果只是简单地”老板少拿点、分给工人”，理论上能挤出来的空间有限，尤其是竞争激烈、议价能力弱的下游代工型企业。真正利润空间大的，往往集中在少数议价能力强、有品牌/渠道优势的企业或者上游原材料环节——这也是为什么”打倒资本家”式的诉求容易显得笼统：不同行业、不同企业的”可分配剩余”差异巨大，一刀切的道德诉求解决不了具体的分配问题。
缺失的是真正的工会和监管部门。对于这些事情，其实我内心有一个答案，但我不敢说。我也有一件想做的事，但我说出来也没用。
哈哈哈。毕竟在这个“夜之城”，还是闭嘴比较好。我还要把博客套Cloudflare代理，除了防莫名其妙的攻击之外，也要让中国大陆访问速度降低，我不希望能看到日记的人太多。话说到这，我想起来前几天，一个老朋友与我联系，让我回想起来一些事情。
2.2 从此音尘各悄然，春山如黛草如烟
前几天一个QQ里的高中老友加我的WeChat。看了他的朋友圈，我的嘴角只剩一抹微笑。我们在高中时关系甚好，属于喜欢看动画的同好。每天除了学习、踢足球就是看动画。在高考之后，我们去了不同的大学。虽然我去的这个大学在政治上比较保守，但我个人当时是对于中国官方叙事有所怀疑。他去了一个比较开放的大学，没想到他倒是思想很快被官方叙事统一了。大约十年前，在大学的某个晚上，联机打游戏时他和我说了很多他所理解的官方叙事逻辑。说实话，为什么传销容易骗到人，就是因为你会对关系近的人放下防备。我从那天之后也逐渐接纳了官方叙事逻辑，无视了数次可以走上不同人生道路的机会：大学老师劝我留学，大学班长问我要不要一块学托福，一些该做的事情没早做，等等。后来由于生活和学习事情变多，逐渐和老朋友们不再联系。同时，受到本身性格和教育影响，我逐渐在思想方面变得极端。但事情在22年发生了转变，因为众所周知的原因，我脱离了官方叙事逻辑，而且剧烈的思想转变带给我的也有很大境遇的改变，我不愿再走那被众人认可的道路，感觉让我恶心。这几年我偶尔回望十年前，回想我轻信了官方叙事的那天，我常常恨我自己；另外，对这个老友，还可能抱有一种“希望看到你也有想法上的改变”的期待。
常常事与愿违。打开他朋友圈，还是大篇幅的官方叙事故事。所以，我的心情就是——放下了，只剩微笑面对。毕竟，我生活的低落也确实是由我全权负责，叙事逻辑、思想这些东西，他不传染给我也会有别人传染给我，所以怎么能怪他人，甚至还期待他也会和我遭遇一样的事情，和我一样改变？还得是怪我当时太容易被忽悠了，说实在的，当时如果我在课业之外，去做一些拓展眼界的事情，或许会不一样。只是，我再也不想让他看到任何透露我想法的文字了。
人生没有如果，这不还是跌跌撞撞走到了今天。面对这更加不包容的环境，我不希望很多人看到我的日记，但我也不想直接设为仅自己可见，要不然就会瞎写了（笑）。
My First Journal/20260910
Life is becoming increasingly aimless lately, with time slipping away like running water. Before I even realized it, I’ve gradually grown numb. I plan to keep a diary on my blog. Although I don’t expect many readers, writing a diary on a public blog means there’s still a chance it will be seen. This will serve as a check on myself so I don’t write completely mindlessly, preventing a repeat of the cringe-worthy Chūnibyō diaries I wrote years ago that I now can’t even bear to read.
1.About My Project
The core structure of my another website is already set up, and I successfully embedded an ad link on the homepage, though it’s not yet fixed in the position I want. Next, I’ll use AI assistance to determine how to design the ad placement. Boosting traffic is another tough problem—I’ll just take it step by step. Site stability is also a key factor; if the service keeps dropping, there’s no point in even thinking about traffic. So I need to be more careful with debugging from now on.
2. Thoughts on Life
I wonder if naming this section “Program” + “Thinking” would get me into trouble, haha. I plan to use this space as a hollow tree hole to vent my thoughts. After all, there are things I wouldn’t dare say on domestic platforms nowadays; sometimes I get a sudden impulse, type out a huge block of text, post it, and guess what? The comment gets shadow-banned.
2.1 Yesterday
I made my girlfriend mad yesterday. She wanted to go out and have a nice meal with me for the Mid-Autumn Festival, but I was completely tactless and said that stuff isn’t clean—that food in China isn’t clean, and only food abroad is clean. Sigh, I think I was just triggered and overgeneralized, plus it’s not like I don’t eat local food at all. Lately, there have been news stories about exploited workers spitting into Yunnan flower cakes, the China GT race actually hiring 60-yuan-a-day elderly men as firefighters, and a certain car battery factory banning employees from using the bathroom to the point where they soiled themselves. A few days before that, it was cabbage soaked in formaldehyde, bayberries soaked in chemicals, and a “revival event” of pickling vegetables by stepping on them with bare feet. Going back another year, there was lead poisoning in Tianshui and cooking oil being transported in mineral oil tankers. I laughed out of sheer absurdity—life sure is getting better and better. Some say it’s just that there are more news distribution channels now, so these things are getting exposed one after another, and in reality, problems aren’t that widespread. Well, that makes sense on paper, but looking at health checkups and food quality inspections, the level of heavy metals in people in our region is on the higher side, and certain foods exceed contaminant limits. This goes straight beyond just individual news exposures.
Thinking further along this line using a mathematical-like induction principle, it’s not hard to see that as the living environment deteriorates, instances of cutting corners, perfunctory work, and missing oversight will only increase. Someone once predicted that this place would eventually devolve into a state of “mutual harm among those at the bottom.” Well, indeed, the mutual harm has already begun—it’s just that people aren’t stabbing each other with knives yet.
As for following this chain of thought to its root cause and deciding who should take the blame, I think that’s an unsolvable question. Some say it’s all the fault of the capitalists and that we should hang them; I just find that view very naive. Launching another anti-rightist Cultural Revolution won’t solve the problem either. Even if you dragged the current group out for struggle sessions and executed them, the new people taking over probably wouldn’t change the operational model. Why? I have a rough conjecture: the production of these companies is actually constrained by the demands of local governments—after all, producing a product counts toward local GDP, so they can’t just cut production at will. On the other hand, the production-and-sales process has to respect market laws; expanded production scale and surplus goods lead to lower profit margins. At this point, to protect profit margins, certain business owners collude with quality and labor oversight departments, and the inspectors simply turn a blind eye. What happens next shouldn’t be hard to grasp, even for the slowest mind in the world. As for those who say, “Why don’t business owners just cash out less and not be so greedy for profit margins, and distribute what they consume back to the workers?” That sounds reasonable, but except for those listed tech companies that can harvest massive amounts of money from retail investors and give a bit more to R&D staff, it’s not very realistic elsewhere. Would the board of directors and shareholders really be that generous?
I put this last topic to Claude, and it told me—
Click to expand response…
Among mid-sized manufacturing enterprises, how much do owner income, total employee wages, and shareholder dividends each account for? To be honest, there is no publicly available statistical data split by “owner personal income vs. total wages vs. dividends”—especially for non-listed mid-sized enterprises. The accounts themselves are opaque, and the boundary between owner compensation and dividends is often blurred (many bosses pay personal expenses directly from corporate accounts). What can be found in official metrics is roughly as follows:
- In 2023, the average profit margin for Chinese manufacturing was around 5% (though it varies greatly depending on the metric and industry, with heavy-asset industries being lower);
- Among the total profits of industrial enterprises above a designated size, private enterprises account for about 20% to 30%, with the rest belonging to state-owned, joint-stock, and foreign enterprises;
- The proportion of labor costs to operating revenue (“personnel cost ratio”) varies wildly by industry. Labor-intensive manufacturing (apparel, food processing) is typically significantly higher than capital/technology-intensive manufacturing.
The conclusions that can be roughly drawn from these figures are: net profit margins for most small-to-medium manufacturing enterprises are intrinsically thin (single digits). If it were as simple as “the boss takes less and gives it to the workers,” the room that could theoretically be squeezed out is limited—especially for downstream OEM-type enterprises with fierce competition and weak bargaining power. Those with truly large profit margins are often concentrated in a minority of enterprises with strong bargaining power, brand/channel advantages, or upstream raw material sectors. This is why demands like “down with the capitalists” tend to sound overgeneralized: the “distributable surplus” varies wildly across different industries and enterprises, and a one-size-fits-all moral demand cannot solve specific distribution problems.
What is missing is a genuine trade union and an incorrupt regulatory body. Regarding these issues, I actually have an answer in my heart, but I don’t dare say it out loud. There’s also something I want to do, but saying it wouldn’t matter anyway.
Haha. After all, in this “Night City,” it’s better to keep your mouth shut. I also plan to route my blog through a Cloudflare proxy—besides DDoS protection, it will also slow down access speeds from Mainland China, as I don’t really want too many people to see it. Speaking of which, a few days ago, an old friend reached out to me, bringing back memories of a few things ____
2.2 Silence Falls and News Fades Away; Spring Mountains Stand Dark Green as Grass Drifts Like Smoke (from a Traditional Chinese Poem)
A few days ago, an old high school friend from my QQ contacts added me on WeChat. Looking at his Wechat Moments, only a faint smile remained on my lips. We were very close in high school, both being anime enthusiasts. Every day was spent studying, playing football games, and watching anime. After the college entrance exam, we went to different universities. Although the university I went to was relatively politically conservative, I personally harbored doubts about the offcial state narrative at the time. He went to a more open-minded university, but unexpectedly, his mindset was quickly aligned with that official narrative. About ten years ago, on a night during college while we were playing video games online, he explained a lot of the logic behind the official narrative as he understood it to me. To be honest, the reason pyramid schemes easily fool people is that you let down your guard around those close to you. From that day on, I gradually accepted the official narrative logic and ignored several opportunities that could have led me down a different life path: a professor urged me to study abroad, my class monitor asked if I wanted to prep for the TOEFL together, and certain things that should have been done early were left undone, among other things. Later, as life and academic burdens increased, I gradually lost touch with many old friends. At the same time, influenced by my own personality and education, my thinking gradually grew extreme. But things changed in 2022: for reasons everyone knows, I broke away from the official narrative logic, and the drastic shift in my mindset brought about significant changes in my circumstances. I no longer wanted to walk the path approved by the crowd—it made me feel sick. Over the past few years, whenever I occasionally looked back at ten years ago and recalled the day I naively believed the official narrative, I often hated myself. At the same time, I harbored a lingering hope that this old friend might also experience a shift in his own thinking
Things rarely go as wished. Opening his Moments of his Wechat, it was still filled with stories of the official narrative. So my state of mind was simply—letting go, facing it with nothing but a smile. After all, I am fully responsible for the low points in my life. Narrative logic, ideology, and the like—if he hadn’t passed them on to me, someone else would have. So how could I blame others, or even expect him to go through the same things I did and change like me? In the end, I only have myself to blame for being so easily fooled back then. Frankly, if I had done a few things outside of schoolwork to broaden my horizons at the time, things might have been different. However, I never want him to see any text revealing my current thoughts ever again.
There are no “what ifs” in life, yet here I am, having stumbled my way to this day. Facing an environment that is increasingly intolerant, I don’t want many people to read my writing, but I also don’t want to set it directly to “Visible to Me Only”—otherwise, I’d end up writing mindlessly again (LOL).
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